Really noisy in my head right now. I’ve been in Singapore for the past 3 nights and I’ve gotten more in my head each day.
It’s just so fucking safe and boring here. Catching up with relatives of relatives and people who last saw me when I was a little boy is killing me. The small talk is driving me nuts.
I’ve been overseas for 3 weeks and it’s really taken a toll. In retrospect I don’t think I was ready for this trip. I’ve not smoked nicotine in 3 weeks and I doubt I can keep it up when I return, if anything I’ve been thinking about smoking weed again. I miss it.
Maybe I just need to up my dose of medication. Maybe I’m just really homesick. Maybe I just need my cat.